Lost Friend

just now
I found myself waiting

is this hate that I feel?
or a taste of longing for your care
I did not think that I am this weak
but you stabbed me so deep
I did not recognized my bleeding

and so I’m asking
why do you have to be cruel?
the world is not fair
but it does not force you to be one
obviously I have no place in you

nothing’s left
but the thought in my hand that you shared
melting, day by day, getting blurry
little sparks will not matter anymore
lost and wandering in this agony

you said it’s a mistake
turn your back and step away
I shouldn’t have felt you
No, I will not be waiting
for the lost friend
I don’t deserve to have

in this hollow ground I’m in
you do not have to remind me

Copyright 2010 Micgui

Adyastabol na Parisukat

Adyastabol na Parisukat

Hugis na inayos,
Tila isang korteng hindi maipaliwanag,
Ang tanging kahulugan lang,
Ay ang kakayahang magbigay galak.

Bawat gilid ay siyang minasdan,
Hanggang sa maaninag ang lumitaw na pangalan,
Wari isang panaginip, kinusot ang mata,
Katotohanay bumunyag, pinigil ang paghinga.

Ito ba’y isang palabas?
O isang uri nga himala?
O siyang simula,
Nang bukod tanging pagkakaibigan?

Isang bagay na naganap,
Sa Adyastabol na Parisukat.

Sa bawat galaw, titig na hindi tiyak,
Ngiting animo’y balot ng misteryo,
Isang pagpipigil, hindi kayang iparating,
Bagay na maraming ibig sabihin.

Pilit ko mang hulaan o masdan,
Kagandahan at kaligayahang, aking tanaw.
Isang puwersang bago at kakaiba,
Maaring isang tuwa, na naka binbin sa araw araw,
Sabay sa daloy ng pag hiling ng pagasa.

Tulad ng Adyastabol na Parisukat,
Ang tangi kong karamay,
Kaligayahan kahit minsan.

Copyright 2009 Micgui

On Your Vague Feeling

on your vague feeling…

you disappoints me
but still you remain to be
the summary of all the things
beautiful to me.
heading to waste, weeping,
this all will be.

you may lost the feeling sometimes,
and yet you are human
accepts everything that’s blossoming
experiences ecstasy
yet failed to understand
half of being with it

such uniqueness,
there can be no other
like a melting hot metal
piercing my heart
opening my being
to this drastic realization

like any human longing for hope
my hope turns to you.

Copyright 2009 Micgui

Essence of Infliction

The rusty clanging of cymbals
Awakens your memories
Youthful and caring
Such love given never fading
Could be the only thing clear, most pure.

Yet time speaks what it is for the end
Nothing stays forever, not this unconditional passion
Whatever changed you, grasp you
Is the only thing certain
And the hope dripping in every minute of your existence.

No more brighter future
To this sunset, you alone can kill
You have forgotten justice, whether or not it existed
You, who use to understand, closes everything
And will continue to lose everything.

Copyright 2009 Micgui

White Curtain

In an unpredictable sanctuary
Lies the white curtain
Dancing in the cool midnight breeze
Twigs and branches outside filled with envy.

Maybe the flowing eerie thing cares
Constantly, I admired its transparent feature
I thought of it and wonder
Why be trapped in this endless mysteriousness.

Maybe it is heartless
Cant feel because I’m not allowed touch
But the air around us can do so
It has a gentle strength, I am tempted to reach.

The ghostly gracious movements
Collide with its shiny gentle cottony presence
Like a gentle memory
Keeping up with the winds changing course.

Its more than an illusion
With the current, twisted it can be violent
Yet fetching hope in its swirling freedom
Magical, with me in every sleep.

Copyright 2009 Micgui